When my spiritual awakening started in 2015, my whole world turned upside down, I went from having a successful career as an freelance OT to suddenly feeling like something was missing. I started to feel more deeply, everything that I had suppressed started to surface. I had always been very sensitive to others energy, often feeling what they were thinking or how they were feeling. What I sensed in their energy and what they said rarely matched. This often left me developing unhelpful coping strategies where I suppressed what I was feeling or doubted myself, thinking maybe what I was sensing was wrong.
During my spiritual healing journey, I came across the word empath and although it resonated I felt something felt quite off. Over the years, my sensitivity got so bad that it was hard to function in the world, just going for a walk and walking past someone would be hard, I would feel everything and absorb everything and then it took me ages to re-centre in my own energy. I didn’t know how to cope but I kept going.
I kept asking spirit, actually stomping my feet and shouting in the air when things became too overwhelming
“ whoever is helping me, give me a solution” “I demand a solution!”
I was guided into a deeper healing journey, peeling back layers of childhood wounds, others’ projections, ancestral patterns and even other timelines. I began to see the patterns: how I had taken on others’ emotions because I believed I was more capable, or because the tension in the home felt too uncomfortable. I absorbed others emotions, beliefs, patterns to create balance or so people would like me. I didn’t know any other way. I didn’t have any healthy way of feeling safe. What I started to notice, was exactly where in my body, I was absorbing. It was usually, my face, mouth and stomach. The very areas I started to have unexplainable health issues.
Spirit did answer my demand.
I came across a beautiful powerful shamanic practice called recapitulation. You will find more information on this technique in ‘the modalities I draw from’ section. This practice, has been life changing, it has helped me heal and seal all these wounds patterns and return emotions, energy and everything that didn’t belong to me. I’m still learning but now as I heal I no longer absorb others emotions as much. I’m not as porous.
Now, I can feel others’ needs and emotions without absorbing.
I can guide sessions intuitively without absorbing or healing for them.
I can stay centred because I no longer have the hidden wounds that once made me open and vulnerable to everything around me.
I’m still learning, but now I would call myself an empowered empath, not an overwhelmed one.
